Saturday, January 9, 2010

Why can't I take advantage of my degree?

I've studied physics for over a decade of my life. My first college class in particular was on "Special Relativity", or the relationship between motion, mass, and time. That theory demonstrates the simple fact that the faster you move, the faster time passes around you (or in other words, you won't age while the rest of the world will). And yet, whenever I'm on chemo, I move much more slowly, yet time seems to fly past me! The evidence is in the phone calls, e-mails, text messages, and work-related requests that I have almost no time or energy to process.

It's been a pretty frustrating week, but I'm now creeping out of it. I had a great New Years weekend up in Yosemite, snowboarding (or, perhaps, snowtripping?) and hiking. Then on Saturday night I began the chemo treatment, and sometime around Wednesday my body began sinking into the molasses dripping from my brain. Today, after lots of extra naps, I'm starting to feel the beginning of normalcy. While I was spending about half my time sleeping this week, I was hopeful that the rest of the world was doing the same. Unfortunately, now I need to somehow catch up. I'm still too tired to run close to the speed of light, so I think I'm just going to have to reset my clock. And everyone else's.

On a rough note, I did check out the blog of a guy I met at my post-radiation MRI. It was pretty disheartening to read that not all of his tumor is being held at bay by the Temodar. He's pretty optimistic as he starts in on a clinical trial that I hope pounds that part of his tumor to pulp. My fingers are crossed for him and his family.

1 comment:

  1. And our fingers are crossed for you and yours, "Wolverine".