Sunday, February 26, 2012
Familiar for me, but not for others
I just need to vent a little frustration with brain cancer. Right now, at this moment, I'm basically going through a somewhat similar recurrence as I've had the last 3 times. It's mixed in that of course I'd love not to have any recurrence, but I've also been keeping track of some of my "survivor" friends, and they are having their own, more difficult, challenges at this point. It reminds me of how miserable and frustrating this entire situation can be. We love to try to come up with reasons (cell phones, diets, genetics, etc.) some of which might have slight validity and all of which add to the illusion of control. But if we had control, then I know these friends would NOT be suffering right now. They are too wonderful to deserve this for any reason, and they are fighters. There is no obvious "causality" as there is for some cancers like lung cancer (and yes, I know I'm potentially shaking up a "cell phone" argument with others - but remember, I'm a physicist). There are currently some new paths to treatments and cures that are going well, but slowly. And there is frustration.